After the hurrah’s came the reality.  That is to say that up until my wife’s passing and even a few days afterwards, the house was full of food and friends and family.  But, within a few short days, family and friends returned home and the food was reduced to an assortment of empty foil pans.  Now was the time for reality…..the loneliness of an empty house after 37 years!

While I was madly in love with my wife, she was gone and I was alone.  And while my 37 years of marriage had its ups and downs, it was very good and a very positive part of my life.  And I missed that.

So, I needed to find a new mate.  And while I knew that I could never replace my late wife, I needed a wife none the less.  I need someone to be not only my wife, I needed someone to be my lover and my best friend.  Sigh!  I had my work laid out for me.